So now the Dr has banned me from running, I have to find another way to lose weight.
I can’t keep forcing my boyfriend to f*** me. I do feel like I’m forcing him. Poor bloke. I’m almost 2 stone heavier now than I was when I met him. Back then we were all about sex. He made it clear he didn’t want a relationship with me. I was only for sex.
2 years on and he is in love with me – and I’m so fat that he finds it hard to want me. He’s not revolted by me. He never says anything about my weight. Is never cruel. Never teases me about it. But there IS a tell tale sign that he doesn’t find me attractive like he used to!
We still have sex. OMG we had amazing sex this morning. But I literally had to beg for it. He works nights. We never get to spend nights together. Makes life very difficult with work. I actually took the day off today so that we could spend it in bed. It was so worth it. (I only get paid for days where I work – no sick days – not conning anyone into paying me). I find myself on my own every night watching porn and pleasing myself. I remember the days when that was the other way round.
I want him to look at me and think – phwar, that’s my woman.
So…what can I do about it? I’ve a friend on Facebook talking about juice plus, another on weight watchers, several on slimming world. I just don’t know where to start. Advice please.